I Surrender!

Last month I posted a list of resolutions for 2018 – here it is only a month later and I’m throwing in the towel. I surrender. As Paul recounts in Romans 7,  I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. (Romans 7:14-15 NIV)

I wanted to make a habit of rising earlier, posting to this blog once a week, sharing the gospel at least once a week, reading a book a month, keeping the evenings free of electronics, and exercising regularly. In just over 30 days, I’ve failed to keep every resolution.

It is discouraging to realize how little control I have over my own behavior. Therefore, I throw up the white flag. I surrender. No longer will I make commitments I cannot keep. Well, there I go again!

I have to say, I began well. The Lord placed people in my life those first couple weeks who were ready to hear of Jesus’ love and sacrifice reconciling them with God. I was so excited. God was answering my prayers for opportunity. I walked, went to the gym, and completed fifteen of the 30 Days of Yoga with Adrienne. I purchased and borrowed books to read and have bookmarks half-way through three of them.

But the Winter Olympics were on television – and This Is Us came back on the air. My books bored me. My husband was away, so I stayed up late and slept in. And last week, I didn’t share the gospel with anyone.

“Oh, Lord, help me!” I cried out.

He did. He led me to Proverbs and humbled me.

In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps. (Proverbs 16:9 NIV)

Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails. (Proverbs 19:21 NIV)

It seems my flesh is weak – no surprise. But I am encouraged because when I am weak, God demonstrates his strength and power. So I truly surrender.

I surrender to the word of God. I surrender to the will of God. I surrender to the Spirit of God. I will follow God’s lead. I will trust his love. He is the faithful one. He tells me he will complete the good work he’s begun in my life. (Philippians 1:6)

My job is to trust and obey – and to confess and repent when I don’t.

So, in my surrender I find peace. I don’t have to work so hard. It is not my job to make things happen. What a relief.

It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery. (Galatians 5:1 NIV)

So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. (John 8:36 NIV)

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